We have reached the peak of fall term everyone. I'm sad to see it end so soon. These last 4 months have been terrific. I want to say thanks to everyone. Thanks to new friends. Thanks to mentors. Thanks to friends and family back home. You all are wonderful.

Now it is time to pass finals and then go home for winter break. I hope everyone has a great break. Winter term is going to be crazy good.

Miracles of miracles,
Look what the cat dragged in.
She's beautiful yet fragile,
And twists the deadly sins.

Dazes of dazes,
I can't find you in the fog.
Searching for your passion,
But you are sinking with the bog.

Clarity of clarity,
No such thing exists.
I'm locked in this timeless emotion,
Why won't you be my bliss?

I'm caught in between
Between seasons
Between lives
Between loves
Between bodies

I'm anxious to leave
Leave this ranch
Leave this drama
Leave this confusion
Leave this stress

I'm trying to hold
Hold onto friends
Hold onto experiences
Hold onto the warmth
Hold onto romance

I'm moving forward
Forward to my dream
Forward to understanding
Forward to comfort

I'm spreading
My love
My desire
My passion
My wings


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Aside from slightly apathetic poem...

I need opions on something I considered earlier this year. I was thinking of getting a piercing on one of my ears. Who thinks Mario would look decent with an ear piercing? lol.

I'll be heading back to Albany/Corvallis on September 13th. Going down to SOU on the 23rd. So during those 10 days I'm in town, I would like to see anybody who is still in town. Pretty sure I will go down to CHS and see some friends at the high school before I go. :)

So, hit me up if you feel like it. Hope everyone is having a good transition into school.

...Is almost over. I haven't written anything for a while. :/

I think I will make a list of stuff I need to do.

~Take summer photos (I haven't taken a single photo this summer)

~Figure out my car insurance policy

~Change living address with the DMV

~Make sure I have everything ready for college.

~Hang out with more friends

~Possibly leave grandpa's farm early

~Go to the beach

~Finish this list...


If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year

I haven't updated in a loooong time.

I don't feel like a lengthy journal entry though. So I'll try and keep it short and sweet. I've been up in Washington for nearly three weeks now working on my grandfather's farm. Recently I helped my mom move from Corvallis to Goldendale, Washington (which was where I was at to begin with) into this old rental house in town until my uncle finishes building her dream house in the more rural part of the area.

My grandfather was a away for a couple days and will be back tomorrow, so I will have to start work again as soon as he's back. I want to ask him if I can take the weekend off to go back down to Corvallis this weekend, although it seems like most of you guys already have major plans for this 4th of July weekend and I wouldn't want to intrude on any of that. It might be hard to convince my grandfather to let me have a break.

I miss Oregon. I miss my friends. It hasn't been too exciting up here if you could imagine. Three days ago Ninth Street Cinemas called me and were about to offer me a job after looking at my application... If only they were a couple weeks faster at hiring me, I would still be down in Oregon. :/ FML.

Well, I guess this was still a lengthy entry. My mother is using DSL up here, and I'll have to use her computer most of the time so I have little patience to browse the internet for too long. If I can't get down to Oregon this weekend then it will have to be later this month when I head down for college registration.

Comin' through the Rye
There You are
On the hay Bails
Our Eyes lock in a smile
That would be our last Embrace
I said Kiss me you're beautiful
And You disappeared with the sunset
Hold your head high heavy Heart
Carry on wayward Son

Music blaring
Car rolling
Windows down

Two young men
Full of testosterone
Sunglasses reflecting
Hair blowing in the wind

Empty houses become sanctuaries
Pizza and margaritas become comfort
Guitar Hero and movies become fun

Lungs filled with smoke
Stomachs filled with ice cream
Mouths full of reminiscing
Heads full of ideas

Good times really do last
A bond that will grow old but stay strong
Friends forever
<3

No poem today. Just thought I'd write about life right now.

Senior year is almost over. I've been very anxious to be done with this semester. :/

I should be working on a portfolio for Psychology class right now. Seriously though? I have to make it all personalized and aesthectically pleasing. Well EXCUSE me Ms. Carman. I thought this was MY portfolio not an art project for you viewing pleasure... ugh.

I'm visiting Southern Oregon University this Friday. That will be fun. Although my mom didn't want to see any OSF plays. :( So we got tickets for some other show unrelated to the OSF sponsored theaters.

Trigonometry test tomorrow... Not sure how much of the formulas I've memorized. Oh well.

'Tis a strange thing to witness
a previous infatuation
making love with a past lover.

My mind knows better
than to care about this happening,
but my heart sings otherwise
in a soundproof chamber.

Unconsidered are my feelings,
although it seems selfish to think so.

Honesty has been made an after thought
possibly to protect me,
but I don't need that anymore.

'Twas respect that I sought from them.

Why do I enjoy swimming in your infested waters?
My inner thoughts tell me it's wrong,
But you convince me to stay.
The longer I stay,
The more the water starts to feel good.
I'm so accustomed to it now, that I don't want to get out.

I'm sinking in this iron sea.
Forgetting how to swim,
My common sense left ashore.
The insinct of self gratification is overwhelming me.
I'll make it back to land,
and tell them all about your traitorous waves.

What does all of this even mean to you?
Does monogamy mean anything to you?
Are you just playing games with me?
So wrong, it feels right.